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31 August 2017

I Lost Her

I lost my best friend.

And I couldn't believe myself that I cried for this loss more than I've ever cried for any of my exs.
The things she said, the things she assumed, the things she claimed I didn't do.

That is how much it hurts, and how much she meant to me.
But she probably never knew, never will know.

I cried. I tried. I cried again. And I tried again.

For all that it is worth,
Will I try again?

One day we'll reunite, but that day, is not today.

24 September 2013

.You Forgot Your Shadow. || 24th Sep 2013 ||

Bags all packed, make sure you remember everything
No looking back, no more; not for anything.
This is what you wanted, isn't it?
Clear it out just like you've never been
What's a goodbye good for, anyway?

There's nothing left of you to remind me
But somehow you're still standing behind me

I'm trying hard to forget you
But my empty walls won't let me let you go
When you took it all, you forgot your shadow
You say you wish me well without you
But something 'bout you tells me that you know, oh oh

When you took it all you forgot
Your shadow, your shadow
When you took it all you forgot
Your shadow, your shadow, your shadow, oh oh

Hide all your photographs,
But I can feel you watching me
How long does your memory last?
It's time I ought to be
Moving on and getting over you
I bet it looks like I'm not even trying to
Here all alone, my past on the walls

With nothing left of you to remind me
So why are you still standing behind me

I'm trying hard to forget you
But my empty walls won't let me let you go
When you took it all, you forgot your shadow
You say you wish me well without you
But something 'bout you tells me that you know, oh oh

When you took it all you forgot
Your shadow, your shadow
When you took it all you forgot
Your shadow, your shadow, your shadow, oh oh

It's always there, too close, too much
The shape of something I can't touch
I turn, and find the shadow's grown
Those empty eyes I begged to stay
Are watching me from yesterday
You can leave me, can you leave me alone?


Sam Tsui - Shadow 

09 February 2013

.CNY. || 9th Feb 2013 ||

this is gonna be the third year celebrating CNY without daddy dearest.
everything is just different already.
worst of all, home is never at peace.
snapping at each other every day.



2010 CNY reunion dinner. last one with daddy.
 


15 January 2013

.21 not. || 16th Jan 2013 ||

"I'm 21 n still wanna have fun"
hmm... I'll take that back.

29 December 2012

.hah! im back. ||30th Dec 2012||

yup im back.
but no, not back to Pg.
just back here to blogging. lol
n no, not a new-year-resolution post.

2nd sem coming to an end.
finals coming up pretty soon.
am actually in the midst of revising n decided to take a break.

this sem has been pretty kind to me. relatively.
as surprising as it sounds, my fav subj this sem is Differential Equations.
Circuit Analysis 1 is torture. not a core subj. just gotta get it over with this sem.
Theory of Machines is interesting. but not easy. some struggle there.
Moral Studies 2 is well, simply some long bullshit essay you gotta write.
Fluid Mechanics Lab is by far my fav lab.
Circuit Lab is fun, but not my thing.

who actually cares bout all this. lol

as busy as i've been, i havent went home in 14 weeks. n counting.
first time ever in my uni/college life that i didnt go home for the entire sem.
honest to the truth, i was never really a home person.
but i do miss my family.
mum did came for a weekend though.
just some alone time to chill.
glad that now she has company at home; my 2nd bro n his gf.
yes, she's practically moved in already.
my mum see things more differently now i guess?
it's good. for everyone. 

my english is slowly deteriorating. havent been using it much.
mainly in texting i think?
malay language has been my most spoken language here i must say.
i even use mandarin more than the english language.

boyfriend, girlfriend you ask? NIL.
just not the time for something serious yet.
im 21 n still wanna have fun.
a thought i recently just found out has been in me all along.
cant commit just yet.
 
when all else fails, go to your books. they wont. only your lecturers will. lol
something i decided to hold on for now.

n that is all.

hugs n kisses.
we shall meet again.

:)