.staying back. || 22nd July 2008 ||

its funny you know..
i still remembered how much i love to stayback in sch just to lepak last time..
but now its like i dont wish to stayback at all..
i mean unless i have somethin on la..
like activities or meetings and stuffs..
if not, i wish i did rather not stayback..

i stayed back till 4.30pm in sch today..
had to wait for my bro to finish his class in college..
damn boring la i tell you..
i ate for the first half an hour at the canteen..
then after that went to Laman Ilmu to do some homework..
then started to feel so bored..
it was only around 3.15pm then..
after that i went to the canteen had some drinks and lepak-ed alone till 4.oopm..
then only go to the porch to wait for my bro..
damnnn.. so darn boringg..!

i still remember when i was in formOne and formTwo [afternoon session], i loveeeeee to go early to sch..
even though that means that i gotta wake up at 6.00am..
i dont mind at all..
at least i go to sch i get to meet and hang out with my friends..
i think back then it was because i dont get to hang out with my friends [outside sch i mean]..

then when i went to formThree [morning session], i still always find excuses to stayback..
at that time, i always had ppl to teman me..
we'll have lunch together..
homework together..
then chit chat along the way..
it was fun.. interesting..

in formFour, i seldom stayback..
there's not much after school activities..
this year, i staybacked only for meetings and activities..
only today did i stayed back in sch just for nothing..
boringggggg..

and above all that, i think the fact that i dont like staying back these days is because of the FRIEND factor..
on the days that i stayback, they dont..
when they stayback, they're always busy..

talking bout FRIENDS..
lately i feel kinda leftout..
among sch mates.. esp my close friends..
i dont know la..
is it because we're all toO busy..?
or is this how it feels like when ppl grow older and friendship just somehow loses its miracle..?

we rarely spent our recess together now..
sometimes i have to sit with my other group of friends instead of my close friends..
a couple of times i even sit and eat alone..
how pathetic..

its obvious that i miss them..
but they dont look like they do..
or am i being brushed aside now..?
hmm.. i wonder..
i hope not..
i trust them that they're not like that..
so i think all these are because we're all toO busy nowadays..
aihhh....


FRIENDS are really a big part of my life.. honestly..